Adrenaline Junkie

My mind is all wrapped up in the idea of performing. It's a drug. It has seeped into my veins and taken a hold once again. It's almost like an addiction I can't shake. Stronger than any substance or liquid courage a person can go to therapy for.
The thrill of the adrenaline rush. The junkie within wants to do things normal people wouldn't do. I want to take a chance at some thing even though I may fail at it. I want to be better than the person next to me. I want to get that callback and I want to flirt with the fact that I may see myself on stage for the rest of my life.

Reality, in those instances don't take hold of me. The insults of mediocrity seem to drip off of me like water off of oil. I'm untouchable, unstoppable, and emotionally stable.

mmm, then it hits moments after...

"why don't you go to college for a grown up career"
"Why, Sam is a little weird."
"Well, at least Steven is going for a real job"
"Sam your so dumb."
"Really?!"

Wow, how quickly one can be brought down to the realistic, backstabbing, dream crushing, world. How influenced I am to live a life that blends me into the society. I mere robot with no feeling of her own.

Ugh...

If I end up in a job that pays well and has me in a cubical you have permission to walk into my office and shoot me.
Unless I work in an office that has a Dwight Shrute, a Jim Halpert, a Micheal Scott, and a Kevin. In that case, it's totally worth living for.

Update

A pregnant goldfish is called a twit

Enjoy the humor in that...

Famous?

A friend of mine was on Jay Leno last night...
Can I officially say I know some one famous yet????

This is to you Evan Allen! Congrats on your fame! ;-)

Why so serious??

Geesh!

Politics reallly get people all in a tizzy. They make people hate one another... Why do we have big government? United we fall? what?

My thoughts:

Humor is the best policy
Racism is cured by noticing others color and taking pride that God created them perfectly.
If you get offended easily, speak softly and gently. Gets your point across a lot better than yelling.
Know that the person next to you has different views, and know that is is okay.
Respect freedom of Speech.
And My Goodness, It's the freaking government! What the heck is the problem with some people??? Is it seriously that serious? I mean yeah, the government oooo big and scary and will one day bring destruction to the Earth, but as of right now... reaaally? It's Obama! Now if we all keep fighting about him, yes we will end in destruction on the mear fact that we will tear eachother to pieces over it.

So lighten up! Take jokes! Look at the heart of man, and say "You know what, you are alllright".
*sigh*... we all just need a big hug and love...

I would make a mediocre hippie.


P.S- Don't like Obamacare... there, I said it... I pay out the beeehind for insurance and still have a comfortable life because I consider my health a priority. Don't make peoples taxes go up because Joe Shmo doesn't want to get insurance and doesn't believe in it.So what does Obama do? He is forcing insurance on him like he does not know enough to get insurance himself.
The ones who should be grandfathered in for care are children who can't think for themselves and make correct decisions in there lives...And also because they are much cuter than average hairy adults. It's like puppies. You take a puppy to the vet, you take a 7 year old dog out back... JUST KIDDING!!!!!!!

ok there...

Can you laugh now?? please??? I made ridiculous comments...
Ugh. Your going to post mean comments about how ignorant I am aren't you...

Well, I tried.

It's not in the water!

So apparently the new status quo is to have babies without a man in he or she's life, and if the man is in the picture, they are not married.

I don't know how many times WIC came to my house or called me in utter amazement that Steven was the baby daddy AND presently active in the child's life. This concerns me.

Also, why this topic came up is because I went to the doctor for my flesh eating wound and I was talking about K.J, my 6 month old son. The doctor very bluntly said... "Is the daddy in the picture?"...
WHAT THE H-E-DOUBLE HOCKEY STICK DOES THAT MEAN! Is it seriously THAT common that it is assumed a young woman with a baby is automatically Maury material?!

*sigh**composing myself*
"Yes, he is. He is going for accounting and me performing arts"
"Oh, okay, well just make sure you are careful with this wound, no sharing towels with your boyfriend..."

Oh my God, do people not get married anymore? Why am I foreign to you lady! Has it seriously gotten that old fashioned to live a conservative life and to do what the Good Lord intended us to do and marry before babies arrive??? It's shocking to me! I can't believe how rare I truly am, it's like I was picked off a weirdo truck and set in a field of norms.

Anyways, God Bless those who assume, it gave me some thing to write about via blog.

Can you tell me why your hair falls out in Gobs?

For all of you who clean up after others, I applaud you.

For all of you who haven't, you better find some one and say "Thank you for your services."

Fun fact, there is more Oriental hair in one apartment here in Kewadin than Ant infestations in Kewadin (which happen a lot).... I'm very curious to know what the h- e- double hockey stick happens when you shower??? Do you shed??? Because that would be soo sweet!


The job I refer to is cleaning apartments. I'm running on empty. Why is it that I am so productive when my son isn't around... oh wait, I remember, he is a job all in himself.

*sigh* I can't believe it's raining, I was going to go shoot some photos with my crappy little point and shoot camera that only works on auto. Just get a little refresher back when I was a cute, all inspired, socialite in high school.

I'm so hungry. Can anybody feed me, my husband left this weekend with no food in the house.

I should shower, but the mrsa likes to make me hurt when I shower. So, do I stink like cleaning solution, or do I undergo a torture chamber of heat in the form of water.

eh, Ill make it through....

"In all you do, put God first, and he will crown your efforts with success"- Proverbs 3 something.

Honesty is always the best policy.

MRSA and OTHER TANGENTS

So, I have been terribly stricken with Mrsa. I Feel like this shouldn't be my first topic for my shiny new blog but hey, I just say what's on ma mind, like Kanye West.
"Big Woop, wanna fight about it?"

I get funnier online, I really am not that funny in person.

So, I must thank Josh Kodis for getting me hooked on this new blogging thing. Xanga is still my female dog but that is to go expected. It has been around since dinosaurs were created by God which in reality are just really large lizards. BITE ME EVOLUTIONIST'S! STICK THAT IN YOUR BIG BANG THEORY!

I am also very honest via internet which gets me into huge trouble some times. I try to refrain, and some times I go, "Frick, I just offended at least 10 people I can think of." but none the less, the damage is done. So if I offend you could you let me know so I can make things right. Honesty is not always the best policy for some.

Also, I am super Christian. Me and God are very very tight. A lot don't think so because I am very open minded and allow people to have there own opinions and don't feel like I need to be all super spiritual around people, but I love my God and my God loves me back. I fear that one day, I may be famous and you will have to hear me thanking God at the Tony awards. Just sayin, he is the one that brings me success in his awesome amazing plan he has for me.

I don't believe in today's prophecies the way that many preach. They preach them like there everyday things. "TODAY IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD WILL HEAL PEOPLE WITH ARM PIT INFECTIONS". Oh yeah? And did you hear that form God? Or are you being just all caught up in the music, and the lights, and the action.
I have seen way to many prophets predictions go left field and never return. Therefore, my faith with humdrum prophecies has declined. Some times, I feel as though it is just peoples desires that are speaking to them. "SUZIE, GOD WILL SEND YOU A NEW PUPPY BY THE END OF THE DAY"... although God can do that however a lot of times I just don't see that coming to forwishing. Is that a word?

I'm also not one of those Christians who believe that God's will is to make you filthy stinkin rich, or to cancel debts you owe, or to magically make your cheating ex husband a God fearing man. He is capable of these things, but I think it takes a little action along with faith to make these things come to pass, if they ever do.

Okay, enough about me, I can talk an ear off when the hubby is away and the kid isn't crying.

Peace. Or, at least attempt it.